Well, I have been putting this off…


Either I am starving (which is possible) or I just had the BEST hospital food: seasoned baked chicken legs, mashed potatoes, green beans and a small roll, sweet tea and a bowl of peaches! I have learned that when in the hospital, you lap up every bite you can because snacks are few and far between (if at all!)

Yesterday was Chemo Monday, and it was extremely painful. Painful to the point that I’ve decided I can’t take that medicine anymore. It is just getting harder and harder to do — more and more painful — and I don’t think I can handle it anymore. Let’s just say that was the good part of the day…

As I am super high from leaving the Cancer Center in Starkville with all kinds of pain medicine to help me get through those two hours of chemo, they wheelchair me out to the car (which never happens) and has Pepper drive me to Tupelo hospital. The nurse practitioner at the Cancer Center did tell me that my white blood cells were very low and I was quite anemic — almost to the point of having to have a transfusion, but not quite. The only thing happening with me lately has been the chemo embolism procedure about 2 weeks ago that is taking a while to get over. Let’s just say the liver doesn’t like it when you mess with it! And I’ve been in a lot of pain for about 2 and 1/2 weeks. As part of that, I haven’t been eating like I normally do, which is not exactly a bad thing! Haha! I just couldn’t eat as much because if my stomach got full, it would push on that liver and it would be painful. I’m anti-pain when I can help it! 😁

So we’re driving Hwy. 45 to Tupelo when Pep gets a phone call about two lights away from the hospital in West Point. The Cancer Center, realizing my blood thinner numbers were excessively high, arrange for us to go by ambulance to Tupelo. We were supposed to stop by West Point hospital for the ambulance but when we got here, we hung out in the ER for a little while. They took a few tests, and they noticed my blood was excessively thin. I find out the Cancer Center was afraid of us having a car accident and me bleeding out or having a brain bleed. The ER and West Point felt the same way about the ambulance and wanted me to spend the night. Last night I had a infusion of Vitamin K which thickens the blood and this morning I wake up with normal blood thinned numbers. So that’s taken care of!

But problem number two with the anemia, has gotten worse overnight and I am going to have to have a blood transfusion and antibiotics. I just started that bag of antibiotics that’s supposed to be an infusion for 4 hours here in West Point. They may start the blood transfusion before I am supposed to leave by ambulance to Tupelo if the timing works out this afternoon. But I am on my way to North Mississippi Medical Center in Tupelo because this morning’s doctor has been talking to my oncologist and because my white blood cells have bottomed out, I am going to be isolated in their infectious control center area until I can get my numbers back up. I don’t have Covid-19. I was tested last night. We don’t know what the infection is exactly but something is going on and they want me in isolation until I can get better.

I consider my life has been in isolation for the past 3 to 5 years, seriously three, so I’m interested to see how much more isolated I can get. Being away from Pepper is going to be difficult, but as we’ve done since this cancer business started we do what we have to do!

#GODISGOOD Y’all know that’s been my mantra for years and He has been showing me that so much in the past 24 hours. Well from moment to moment, Pepper and I didn’t know what was going on last evening/night. We didn’t know what we were supposed to be doing, if we were going to spend the night at the hospital, if we were going home, if we were going to Tupelo, where we were going to be, what we needed to be doing, but God knew and he led very smart doctors to guide us along the way.

And he continues to lead very smart doctors and nurses along our way today. I still don’t know when I’m leaving for Tupelo, what will happen there, or anything else. Which for control freak is crazy making! But I know God’s got this and I know everything’s going to be okay. I am INCREDIBLY BLESSED! And thank you to all of those who have been praying for me, for Pepper, and for my family we appreciate it more than you’ll ever know!

14 thoughts on “Well, I have been putting this off…

  1. Praying for you, Gwen! You are correct—God has this, but knowing that fact doesn’t always make it any less difficult to go through minute-by-minute. Bless you and Pepper.

    • You are so kind! Thank you! I am afraid I do put a “Pollyanna” spin on a lot of this and I know not everyone deals with things the same way. I’m just weird! I would rather be home, but looking at this as a “vacation.” From the beginning, Pepper and I said God’s got this and we will do whatever it takes to get better. Right now, this is just what we have to do. Like it or not, but it is easier if you learn to like it. I do a LOT of protesting, and many people laugh, but it is what it is. I do have rough days, and I am so happy to have good friends like you who are praying for me and encouraging me daily. I am so blessed!

  2. Oh my sweet Gwen. I am so sorry you are hitting speed bumps and pain. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers as well as Mathiston United Methodist Church prayer list. Just take care of Gwen’
    Anything we can do, let us know. Love ❤️ and prayers 🙏🙏 to you and Pepper.
    🙏🙏❤️❤️GwenStrong ❤️❤️🙏👏

  3. Gwen, you are such a strong, positive, Godly woman. Every time I see you, you are smiling. I am so in awe of your attitude, so proud you are solely dependent upon God.
    Praying for you and Pepper. Love y’all,
    Michael & Angela (Macon) Chandler

  4. Continued prayers for you Gwen. I am amazed by your strength and wonder if you realize just how much strength you give to others when sharing your journey. God does have this for sure!

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